Leave it all on the course.
When Laurie and I started running with the Mattie's Diner Run Club last year, I learned about Psychoactive, a last runner standing race. Several of the club members had run the race and made it sound like a lot of fun. I ran it last year not really knowing what to expect. It was unlike any race I’d ever run. The race format is pretty unique even by last runner standing standards. You have a set amount of time to finish each 1.5 mile loop, but every five laps, the time drops by a minute. Last year we started out running a 14:00 pace which was conversational and fairly walkable. After running 52.5, the pace dropped down to 9:20 which was significantly tougher. Shortly into lap 37, I realized I was off pace and that it would be my last. I then realized that meant the lap wouldn’t count and I didn't want to run an extra lap without getting any credit, so I started sprinting in and made the cutoff by less than 30 seconds but I was spent and decided I was done. I ended up tied for 4th but in the days following I regretted the fact that I quit when I could’ve started another lap, even if I knew I didn’t have a chance of finishing. I knew if I came back I vowed to go until I was timed out or won, no matter what.
After the Run for Relief in May, I took it a bit easy and tried to focus on some speed work over the summer. Life and the heat got in the way a bit but by August I was building some consistency and put in a very strong 50k run on the greenway three weeks out from race day. I felt at least as strong as I was at this point last year and was determined to leave it all out there on the course. With our first child due in early December, this would be my last race for a while, why not go out on top?
Laurie dropped me off at Blackberry Ridge Farm at 7:00, I checked in, set up my stuff in the tent, chatted with friends, went over crewing strategies with Jesus, who was only planning 5 laps since he had his first 100 miler a week later, and got ready to go. Shortly after 8:00am, 125 runners gathered in the gravel around the fire pit. Adam Bratton, the self appointed “Head Enabler” of Human Powered Movement, donning a newly gifted custom lab coat emblazoned with a gold “FAFO” on the back, counted us down and we were off, walking across the dew covered fields for the first of an unknown amount of laps.
| Blackberry Ridge Farm from above, curtesy of Ruben Felix |
Laps 1-15 (Miles 0-22.5)
The first lap is all about figuring out the course. There were a few changes this year, some added elevation gain but also more time in the shade and less back and forth through the fields. Due to the slightly tougher course, we started out with a time limit of 21:30 per lap for the first five laps. I walked as much as I could and settled in for a long day. Lap two was the Mattie’s Diner Run Club lap of silence. When the diner closed a few months ago, the run club went out with a bang. We threw a funeral, everyone dressed in black and there was even a coffin that was carried on the run. We’re now meeting over at Great Wagon Rd Distillery on Tuesdays at 6:30 with most of the same people and vibes but the race wanted to honor us since about 15 of us were there. People weren’t completely silent during the lap, but the coffin did make another appearance for one lap of the Psychoactive course. After the lap I swapped my MDRC shirt for my white rabbit ez perf which I hoped would keep me cool and it was time to get down to business.
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| The coffin making a lap, curtesy of Wes Maxwell |
The next few laps went by pretty quickly and before I knew it, we were at the end of lap five and would have our first time drop. Laps six through ten would have to be completed in 20:30, still an easy pace that allowed for a lot of walking. My nutrition strategy for the first 15 laps was to drink between each lap and eat some chews every few laps but to not carry anything with me. The effort and temperature was low enough to allow for this strategy. Between each lap I drank about six ounces or so of either Powerade or LMNT (an electrolyte drink with a ton of sodium). After lap 9 we got our first distance prize for the half marathon (an HPM bib belt) and after lap ten we lost another minute, down to 19:30.
Lap 12 was the always eventful Sierra Nevada Lap. The first 12 people who register for this lap have to drink a Sierra Nevada (N/A options available) during the lap and the first one back gets their first choice of prizes. I thought it would be fun and a good opportunity to test the legs a bit and remind them that I could go fast, so once the lap started, I drank an N/A cerveza in a few quick chugs (it’s stupid enough so I figured I’d leave out the alcohol) and took off. I took the lead on the lap by running up the first climb and from there on I was alone, cruising at about an 8:00 pace. I figured if I was gonna do this then I might as well give myself time to recover and properly hydrate after. I finished first with about 7 minutes left on the clock and snagged an awesome Sierra Nevada Flannel. I took time to rehydrate, use the restroom and relax a bit and then, like clockwork, it was on to lap 13.
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| Sierra Nevada Lap, curtesy of Wes Maxwell |
I’m not sure when exactly but at some point it started to get noticeably hot. Luckily Jesus had brought a cooler full of ice water and sponges. Now between laps after drinking and eating a bit, I would grab a sponge and cool off my head, being careful to not get my feet wet for fear of blisters. The lack of humidity allowed this to actually work for once and by being able to cool off every 15-18 minutes, I was able to stay cool throughout the day. Not something I thought could happen given my history with hot races.
| Keeping Cool, curtesy of Mike Cooke |
Upon finishing lap 15, I switched up my fueling strategy since I would start moving faster I would need more of everything. This meant carrying fluids with me as well as eating every other lap. I was wearing my new Terignôta shorts (best $28 I’ve ever spent) which have a built in waist stuff pocket all around which fits a small water bottle. I decided to fill a 12 oz bottle up to the 8oz line alternating between Precision Hydration 1000 and 1500. This would be enough to hit my fluid, electrolyte and carb goals without overdoing it. After a lap or two, I decided to top off the bottle with water for a full 12oz since it was the hottest part of the day.
These laps started to feel longer as more and more people started to drop. The first big drop point was once we hit the marathon mark. This race is a very approachable first marathon since you only have to run a 12:20 pace to make it that far. Unless you really want a 50k or further, at that point the smell of the taco truck and sound of the party going on all around you are a pretty strong call to quit. Only 25 of us answered the bell on lap 19.
One of my favorite things about this race is the opportunity to run with other people and watch a race play out from within. At Mountain Masochist I ran solo for 49 miles. If you’re running solo at Psycho, you’re doing it wrong. The good thing about having so many friends running is that the longer you run the bigger your crew becomes. By the 30 mile mark we still had 6 members of the MDRC/GWRD club still in the race plus my friends Jeremy and Miller so there was no shortage of people to run with.
| L to R - Miller, Tim, Me, Ryan and Laura, curtesy of Ruben Felix |
Tim dipped out at lap 21 after a 50k. Miller barely finished in time then threw his hat at sprinted off the line to start lap 22 with a sort of victory lap, Anthony would also call it a day after 33 miles. Midway through lap 23 Rachel and I were running together about to finish the loop through the front field, Jeremy was just coming out of the woods, clearly struggling and off pace. I absolutely hated it for him. Nobody embodies this race better than him and he Is always a joy to run with. Rachel shouted some encouraging words to him but we both knew this was it for him.
As sad as it was to watch Jeremy get timed out, it was equally inspiring watching Lili answer the bell lap after lap. Last year she only made it 22.5 miles due to the heat, but this time she was cooling off well between each lap and looking strong. Lap 24 included the 35 mile distance prize (a coffee tumbler from race sponsor Black Coffee Roasting Co.) and Lili was still in it with only 14 runners left. She finished the lap in time and called it a day with a massive distance PR.
Aside from dropping time every five laps, every fifth lap is also a prize lap, meaning the first person to finish gets a bag of coffee. Last year I regretted not going for one to get my legs moving faster so I decided lap 25 would be a good one to go for after pushing lap 12 earlier. I went out front easily and nobody contested it. I ended up running around an 8:30 pace or so, not quite as fast or smooth as lap 12 but it still felt pretty good, aside from some leg fatigue that was starting to set in. Lap 25 would be Laura’s last and at the start of lap 26, only eight of us made our way to the start line.
| The ever-dwindling field, curtesy of Ruben Felix |
Laps 26-37 (Miles 37.5-56)
By lap 27, we were down to just seven, three of which were women. A lot of these laps started to run together. This is the hardest stretch of the race, you’re more than ten miles from the next distance prize (mile 50, lap 34) and there’s only a handful of runners left. By this point you’ve already talked to everyone and there isn’t much more to say. You’re really just holding on until the 50’s when the real racing starts.
At some point with the lap time decreasing, drinking 12oz during each lap started making me feel bloated so I let John and Jesus who were refilling my bottles know to stop topping them off with water. A few laps later the bloating subsided.
The early 40’s was a focus on the women’s race, they had announced a cash prize for the top woman and even though she was coming off the Hurricane 100k just two weeks prior, two time defending woman’s champion Rachel decided to try for it even though her goal for the day was “only” a 50k. After lap 27 we were down to six runners and only two women. I was running with Rachel most of the time but we overheard the other woman, Margaret, mention that she was a marathoner from Pennsylvania and her brother talked her into this race while she was in town for business. She’d never gone longer than 26.2 and now she was over 40 miles in. Rachel kept hoping she would drop but Margaret proved to be too tough. Rachel called it on lap 29 after 43.5 miles and then there were five. Right around this time Laurie showed up to cheer me on and help crew me. This was a nice morale boost after losing the friend I’d been running with for hours.
| The final five, curtesy of Deb Dandro |
Last year I had made it to the final five and quit at the same time as one other runner to tie for fourth. This year I was determined to get on the podium. After lap 30, we were down to 15:30, a 10:20 pace. From experience I knew this was the last time it could remotely be considered “easy”. My legs were starting to get heavy, soreness was felt just about everywhere, but we were past 5:00pm and the heat was starting to subside. It was now strictly a battle of will. I was determined to do better than last year, in place, distance and laps. As much as the next few laps started to hurt, I was determined not to stop. Any minute someone could break. The next time drop could blow the race wide open and I needed to be there for it.
we were still five strong at the start of lap 34, the 50 mile prize lap. I was hoping Margaret would call it here since she had the women’s victory locked up already. As we made our way through the front field I noticed it was just four of us, Ryan, Thomas, Margaret and I. Then I noticed the fifth runner coming out of the woods, far behind and moving slow. It was clear he would get timed out. Down to four. I finished the lap, got my HPM crewneck for finishing 50 miles, swapped out my bottles with John, Jesus and Laurie, dropped my hat as I no longer needed the shade and got ready for lap 35, the final one before things get really tough.
Four of us finished lap 34 but Margaret decided to call it and so it was Ryan, Thomas and I, with our podium spots secured, starting out on lap 35 after 51 miles and nearly 11 hours on our feet. Thomas had been cruising solo out front for a lot of the recent laps but this lap the three of us started out together and chatted for a bit. Turns out, Thomas is only 21 and woke up at 3:00am to drive here from Charleston, SC. For sure fatigue would catch up to him, right? Ryan, a Charlotte local had never run this race before but was a multi-time winner of another race with a similar format. I was the only one left with experience at this race but the other two had run at least 70 miles before, I’d never gone further than 55.5. It was anyone’s race as far as I was concerned and I was determined to keep it that way.
About halfway through before the second big climb in the woods I decided to make a quick bathroom break since I wouldn’t have time after the next time cut. It unfortunately wasn’t as quick as I’d hoped and next thing I knew, I was off pace to finish the lap. I didn’t panic but knew I needed to hurry. I ended up finishing strong with about 30-40 seconds on the clock but was now feeling a bit unsure of how much further I could go.
| The pace is picking up, curtesy of Jason Seagle |
I started lap 36 running a sub 8:00 pace, wanting to give myself enough cushion and see how easy it felt. You’ve got to believe that you can run sub 9:40 pace with 52.5 miles on your legs or you’ll never do it. It didn’t feel too bad and I was thinking I could hang in there for at least a few more laps but once we started climbing, my legs started to feel dead. The other two pulled away and I was now behind pace and alone. Doubt crept in big time. I thought if I wasn’t gonna win, why keep going. I told myself I wouldn’t quit, that I would keep going as long as I hit cutoffs, but if I just sandbagged it here, I’d miss the cutoff and could be done. That’s not my style though. I told myself I had to give it an honest effort so I started pushing. Not an all out sprint but I was moving pretty quick. The shout of "Two Minutes!" over the bullhorn let me know it’d be tight but with around 30 seconds or less, I came within view of the finish line. I sprinted across, swapped my bottles and Jesus jogged to the start line with me giving me a water bottle with plain water to drink before the next lap began.
| Jesus keeping me hydrated, curtesy of Jason Seagle |
Lap 37 was as far as I made it last year. I hit the cutoff but then quit which I regretted. I decided that wouldn’t happen this time. I’d keep going till getting cutoff no matter what. I started out fast again but it became apparent pretty quickly that the last lap had taken a lot out of me. We started climbing early on and my legs were completely gone. I couldn’t run no matter how bad I wanted to, all I could do was shuffle. I was alone and trying hard but it wasn’t enough. I heard Adam yell into the bullhorn “Four minutes!” When I still had over a half a mile to go. This was it, I wasn’t making it past this lap. The only question was do I walk it in or run it. As I popped out of the final wooded section I heard my friends yelling “We love you Mark!”. I felt the love and support of this awesome community of runners I get to spend every Tuesday with, I got a bit emotional and decided to run it in. I don’t ever walk across finish lines, why should today be any different. I was running through the fields with a quarter mile to go when the next lap started. I was officially a DNF. Then I heard the music switch to Volbeat, a Danish heavy metal band whom I would listen to while running when I was in grad school. I stopped listening to music during runs almost ten years ago but they were a staple of my old running playlist. Laurie knew that and she had them put it on to make me laugh. It worked. I opened up my stride and ran it in strong, sore, tired and grateful.
| Finishing Strong curtesy of Ruben Felix |
Post Race
Although I officially went one fewer lap than last year, the course was a hair longer this year giving me an unofficial distance of 56 miles, a new personal best. I high-fived/hugged the RD Adam as I finished, thanked all my friends for helping me throughout the day and finally, for the first time in about 12 hours, sat down. As I was asking Laurie for my towel so I could dry off and change shirts, Adam cracked open a "Psychoberry DNF Ale" and sprayed it like champagne and then handed it to me congratulating me on a great effort. It was 90% foam at that point but I stood up and finished it in one big swig. Then Deb gave me an unopened DNF Ale as my finisher prize. We stayed around for a bit to see how the race would play out but ultimately, I needed food and we ended up leaving probably 10 minutes before Ryan pulled off the win. Huge congrats to those two, they along with everyone else out there made for an unforgettable day.
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| HPM Head Enabler, Adam, doing some enabling, curtesy of Deb Dandro |
A huge thanks to Laurie, John, Jesus, Rachel and all the other Matties/Great Wagon Rd crew who were out there crewing for me and cheering me on throughout the day, y'all make this race one of my favorite days of the year.
Some final stats:
- 56 oz Powerade
- 64 oz LMNT
- 12 oz Sierra Nevada Trail Pass Breveza
- 112 oz Precision Hydration 1500
- 80 oz Precision Hydration 1000
- 80+ oz water
- 7 packages of Margarita Cliff Bloks
- 9 Precision Fuel 30 gels
- Hype Song that I declared during registration: Make Art Not Friends - Sturgill Simpson
- 56 Miles
- 4,925 ft elevation gain
- 11:19:09 (12:08 pace)










